I also get to lie across pillows on our bed, which helps me to relax. He starts really lightly, about half of the usual warm-up intensity. And it doesn’t get harder or more intense until I ask for it. I can also request any implements or change of implements. Don’t think that this means giving it (or taking it) is a piece of cake. These are long spankings that build up to a very high intensity.
I think because it is so long, it lulls me into sub space, a relaxed state, a place of calm, where my head isn’t being stabbed with a knife over and over, or pounded by a hammer, again and again. I reach a place where after hours of holding my muscles tight against the pain, I relax. I also tend to clench my jaw muscles, and that relaxes too.
Last night started with the blue cane, went to the white cane, to the loopy rope thingie, to the rattan cane, and finally settled on using a switch. At my request, he kept on with the switch for a long time, getting more and more intense.
Yes, it was the ‘bumpy’ switch I posted about yesterday. Yes, he used it on bare skin. No, I didn’t mind or care. Yes, I asked for it. Yes, I asked him to increase the intensity, several times. Yes, I have a couple of small marks today. Yes, I have a very tender bottom. Yes, I am uncomfortable sitting.
DO YOU THINK I CARE?
My pain level for the migraine has gone from a very solid 8 down to a 2 by the time I went to sleep. Today I am at a pain level of 3 or 4. But MOST IMPORTANT! I am not overwhelmed emotionally with the pain. I can cope. My check lists got done. School happened. Dinner will happen, and is already planned. While I can’t do anything intricate or tedious, I can think and concentrate to function and get through the day. I am not puking or retching. I am not considering violence towards anyone who makes noise. I am not swinging between deep despair and murderous rage. I am not overwhelmed with fatigue.
So…would I take that kind of a spanking again…YOU BET! And yes, if he were here, and the house wasn’t full of kidlets, I would be asking again.
PS – I plan to do a more thorough description of dealing with migraines by spanking…when I can think to express it all clearly.