Last night
was spanking #3 of 4, which dealt with the running of the house: cleaning, chores, homeschool and
finances. I had an abnormal amount of
butterflies before this spanking. I’m
not sure if it was because it had been about a week since I’d been spanked or
if it was because the last one (Spanking #2) was a LOT more intense than I had
bargained for.
Captain
always starts with the Blue Cane, which I love for warm ups. It has just the right feel to get me into the
proper head space. Then he started
switching to other stuff. He didn’t
spank hard…but I felt each swat because he swatted as he talked and the Man had
a LOT to say! The past is the past, but what he expects is a
lot more than I’ve been doing. And he’s
proving to be very consistent. I think
my days of slacking off are over. And I
am grateful for the accountability (at least at this moment sitting here in
this chair…but my opinions have been known to change, lol).
He also had
me count for the first time. I had to
count the next twenty swats. It was very
difficult. He was swatting fast with our
wood paddle, and I could hardly get one number out before the next swat
fell. It made it very hard to
concentrate. I did make it through
without losing count or having him start over.
It was a
good night. The slate is cleared. I have expectations and accountability from
him. It’s nice to know what matters to
him. Before he never said much. And it was easy to just let everything slide…because
nothing bothered him (or so I used to think).
Now I know. And it feels safer
knowing. It’s not just the
accountability…but he’s looking now and NOTICING what is being done (and handing
out praise for it) and well as what’s not getting done.
Speaking of
which…I have some things to get done!!!
Just one more to go! Counting sounds hard to do. Glad you got through it all okay. ((hugs))
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